Wednesday, 30 December 2009

Merry (late) Christmas and Happy (early) New Year!

Hello everyone! I'm sorry for being such a bad blogger lately. Between the holidays, the studying, the family, the travelling... Well I haven't had much time. The sad thing is that this won't stop until 1st February, when I'll have my last and final exam. Meanwhile, I hope you can forgive me for not writing or reading as much as I would want to.

I spent my Christmas in Barcelona, as every year, because all my dad's family lives there.

Well, saying I went to Barcelona is not quite right. I went to a small (really small) town about half an hour away from Barcelona city where there is nothing to do and it is all very rural.

We always spend these days the same way:eating.

However,this year we did something different and unexpected and it was great.

On Christmas Eve, at 2am, when everyone was leaving (we were 21 at my grandparents house this year I think), my cousin had the brilliant idea of going clubbing.

Somehow, I got involved in all this and so my uncle (40), my cousin (25), my other cousin (33) and her girlfriend (37) and me(17)...We went partying together.

Surreal much?

And so we went to this really weird club in the small town next to ours.

I thought I wouldn't get in! Here in Madrid, it is quite hard to get into a club if you are not 18, and I am not 18.(unless you have a false ID, but I am a goody-two-shoes/idiot so I don't have one). But when we got there, the guy didn't even look at my face.

So my first time clubbing was with my (much older) family.

Very strange.

But the story doesn't end here. Imagine my amazement when, between all this, I see this really famous young actor in front of me in the queu!

And imagine my disappointment when I see him up front. Why does television lie to us? It is not fair.

So here I leave you with two photographs of him in television so you can judge. His name in Mario Casas and he curiously lives in the town next to my grandparents'.

Thanks for listening, as always,


PS. Real difference

Tuesday, 22 December 2009

Where you really there?

Yesterday I woke up, and rubbed my eyes really hard because I couldn't believe what I was seeing through the window.


Snow everywhere. It was all white and beautiful and magical.

Let me explain myself: As I said on my last post, it never snows here in Madrid. With a little luck it snows in February or March one day. So seeing snow in December was like a gift. Finally a white christmas!

But later it rained and rained and rained...

And this morning, when I looked out from the window, the snow had disappeared completely.

It was like it was never there.


Saturday, 12 December 2009

Winter and all that..

So, it's been obvious for a few weeks, at least here, that winter has come. Like wow.

And so my nose is always cold, and so are my hands and my feet.

I have to wear so many layers which make me feel like an onion, which is not good.

The days are so short and it is always dark and it makes me think that it is later than it really is.

My exams-my very important exams- are coming up, so I am quite stressed out.

And to top it all, it never snows here, so the cold is just useless and could just leave us for good.

And it just makes me want to crawl in bed and sleep until spring comes.


I only have one more week left of school and then holidays! Christmas! And that is really the only thing I look forward to at this time of year.

However, I do try to be optimistic and leave those horrible things out of my mind.

Which usually works.

Christmas is just that cool.


Monday, 7 December 2009

Dear Boy

Dear Boy,

Thank you for loving me for me, and for not hoping for someone who is thinner or prettier. Thank you for not comparing me to girls who have brighter smiles.

Thank you for making me laugh, taking care of me when I get sick, and being trustworthy.Thank you for remembering that I pefer orchids to roses, and that my favourite colour is not blue, but turquoise.

Thank you for knowing that I was too shy to kiss you first and for not being afraid of kissing me, for knowing I wouldn't slap you or push you away. Your kisses were perfect. Thank you for not stressing about where to take me; knowing that what is important is that I'll be with you.

If I cry, please know it's not because of you, just hold me close and I'll heal quickly. And if it's because of you, I'll heal just the same. And if we decide to break up, please understand that I might be bitter, but I'd like to be your friend if you'll let me. I promise to remember that you have feelings too.

Please tell me if anything I do bothers you, or if something just doesn't sit right. And thank you for always being honest with me.

When i have a bad day, thank you for showering me with confidence and smiles.

I hope that you don't think I ask too much of you. I hope you understand that I am still scared. I wish I could tell you if we'll be in love forever.

Meanwhile, I promise to continue doing my best to be kind and love you dearly for all that you are, without expecting too much of you.

Yours always,



Saturday, 5 December 2009


{So sorry for not posting in a while. Forgive me? Please?}

Hmm...I think I have a problem. You might think I'm kidding but it actually may be serious. I think I malfunction. No,it's not that. What is it then?

Oh,I know! I am not adapted to my environment. That sounds like biology, which I haven't done in a while, but it also sounds quite right.


Well, because, I absolutely abhor change. I hate it. I just can't take it. I know it is supposed to be good but it scares me to death.  Not knowing what that change will bring me, and what it won't bring me.

Some time ago, I read this quote from Everwood(such a good show, it's a shame it ended) about this and I loved it. I suppose it's because I sooo feel this way. Maybe you do too? So here I leave it with you. I hope you like it:

The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw, my inability to change. I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels safer somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be out there, waiting for you. Chances are it could be even worse. So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict. You're not killing anyone... Except maybe yourself a little. When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really close. Which, thank God, they never do. But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever... that you'll never have to change again. 


Sunday, 29 November 2009

Happy Birthday!

Today is my wonderful friend's 18th birthday!

Now she can drive...


And go to jail!

We had a lot of fun celebrating on Friday=).

Excuse my little inspiration.

Thanks for listening, as always!


Tuesday, 24 November 2009

You won't believe what happened to me

Today, such a bizarre thing happened to me that I just had to write it down. I am still in shock.

This afternoon, after my singing class, I was waiting at the bus stop for my bus(duh), listening to my ipod. Nothing unusual. My bags where placed by my side. My school bag first and my lunch bag further away.

I was looking to the right, minding my own business, and the next thing I see is a hand grabbing my lunch bag and running away with it.

Yep, they stole my lunch bag.

They stole my lunch bag.


The point is, he just started running and I could see him, and he was holding his trousers because they were falling off and he couldn't be much older than me and it was all just so surreal.

It's like, you moron, you just got yourself two tupperwares, a fork and a knife. Oh, and a spoon. And some napkins. All dirty. Enjoy.

I could see him running away with it, up the street, and I could only stare with my mouth open, thinking:

Someone just stole my lunch bag. Why would somebody steal my lunch bag?

It seriously looked like a bad joke or something.

Come on, if you're going to rob someone, at least do it well. Rob someone who seems to have something, not a school girl with a school bag and a lunch bag.


What do you think?


Monday, 23 November 2009

It's the end of the world...

...What to do before?

Here are a few random things I would want to do before the apocalypse:

1. Learn to surf.

2. Watch all the musicals in Broadway.

3. Have a huge end of the world party.

4. Fly in balloon.

5. Travel everywhere. I want to see it all.

6. Read the classics.

7.Walk barefoot.

8.Fly a kite.

9. Party the whole night in my beautiful city Madrid.

10. Eat one of these xD.

11. Own a polaroid and take many random pictures with it and stick them to my wall.

12. Have my happy ending.

13. Learn to sew and make my own clothes.

14. Kiss a stranger.

But above all...


Sunday, 22 November 2009

Can't help it

This Friday I went to see New Moon with my friends(original version, which is, I discovered on Saturday, much better than translated to Spanish). Before anyone says anything: yes, I am a twilight fan and yes, I know it is corny,cliche and whatelse but, hey, I am a sucker for romance, and for amazingly perfect male fictional characters. And no, I can't help it.

The first film was a huge disappointment but this one was better. I think. Maybe I have to see it more to judge...Hmm...

Well,my point is, it is better partly for the fact that Robert Pattinson doesn't appear so much in the movie. It is kind of sad that I spent all the time looking for Edward when I was reading the book and now I don't want to see him. But,come on! He's such a horrible actor! It gives me the chills! And he's not even handsome, so please, please can somebody tell me why they had to choose him?

Because I personally find very confusing that in the books I can't stop thinking that Bella is an idiot for even thinking of Jacob and that Jacob should just die. But in the movie how can I help but think: Forget about that horrible vampire and just kiss the droolingly hot werewolf already! And yes, Robert, you should have stayed with your shirt on cause, let me tell you, you wish you were half as hot as Taylor, and if he had to gain 30kg of muscle to stay in the movies, then you should too(excuse the hormones).

Ahh,I feel much better now =)

So yes, remember not to judge ;)


PD. The part that they missed that I missed the most:

Tuesday, 17 November 2009


Oh my God! I am so happy right now I could dieeeeee. Guess what?

I just received an email from UCL, my first choice university!!!!!

Okay, it is not such a big deal I suppose because with architecture (what I want to study), if they like you they send you a task, and if they like you after that still, they ask for interview, and if you've still managed to continue being liked by them...THEN they offer you a place.

But they like me a little bit because the sent me the task! =D

Now I have a lot of work, but I am still so excited! I am one step closer tu UCL!


Monday, 16 November 2009

Butter Fingers

Do you ever have the feeling that things are slipping through your fingers? And you try desperately to hold on, but it just seems impossible.

If I want to get together with my friends (school and outside) together, it's always me who has to organize it. It's not like I'm a great organizer. Heck, I'm a lousy organizer! I get stressed, anxious, nervous...

I am not good at it. 

The sad part is it's always me who has to organize it because, if not, no one bothers. They all say: 'You do it, you are better than me at that.' But how could that be true if they haven't even tried?

The thing is, I want to tell them I won't do it again, that I am tired of it, that it looks as if I'm the only one that cares for our friendship.

But I can't. I can't because I'm scared that they won't do anything. That they'll slip through my fingers, that what I've worked for all this time will just break so easily. That I'll get to see that I was really the only one who cared.


Wednesday, 11 November 2009

My First Award

First of all I would like to thank the amazing Em-illi for this award which I am very excited about as it is my first one =).

So,basically I have to tell you 10 things about myself...

1. I was born purple. Literally. The doctors had to help me breathe. I couldn't do it on my own. Like most things.

2. My best friend when I was in playschool bullied me non-stop. She is still one of my closest friends. Fortunately, the bullying stopped a long while ago =P.

3. I am thrilled and terrified at the same time of next year. I want to start college so badly, but I know that I am going to miss my friends sooooo much. They are everything to me.

4. I am scared that I won't be accepted into any of the UK universities and that I will have to stay in Madrid instead. I really am excited about doing the college experience away from home.

5. I am in love with my city. It is my true love.

6. I am, weirdly enough, scared of alcohol.

7. I say outloud what I'm writing. All the time.

8. I've never gone through the phace were I hated my parents, life, rules... normal teenage things to hate. I've always felt like a weirdo for being such a content teenager.

9. People who are constantly depressed and complaining about life annoy me. I believe that life is a gift and that I am very lucky, and anyone who doesn't see it that way is an ungrateful person.

10. I believe that I have an invisibility cloak attached to me, as no one ever sees me. The strange thing is that, most times, I see this as something positive.

I would like to pass this award to:

Catherine from  a life in seven billion.

Liss from  Daydream Lily Blog

Natalie from Toast and Cereal

Sadly, I am still new so I don't know that many more blogs!

Thank you fot listening, as always.


Monday, 9 November 2009

To my dearest friends

~Somewhere between the procrastination
...And the homework
...And the incessant forwards
...And the friendships
...And the nasty cafeteria food
...And the calls to each other complaining about crushes

~Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends
...And the "I miss you's"
...And the "I love you's"
...And the "What are we doing tonight's"
...And somewhere between all of the changing & growing..

~Somewhere between the classes
...And the skipping classes
...And the studying for tests
...And the pretending to study for tests
...And the downright not studying for tests...

~I forgot.

...I forgot what high school is all about.
...I forgot what it meant to cry
...I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy.
...And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart.
...I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future.
...I forgot that you can't control falling in love
...And that you can't make yourself fall in love.

~I learned that I can love.

...I learned that it's okay to mess up
...And it's okay to ask for help
...And it's okay to feel like crap.
...I learned its okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day.
...I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have.
...I learned that the greatest thing about high school isnt the parties or the drinking or the hook-ups...
...It's the friendships which means taking chances.
...I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about.
...I learned that letters from friends are the most important thing
...And that sending cards to your friends makes YOU feel better.

~But, basically, I just learned that my friends
...Both old and new
...Are the most important people to me in the world
...And without them, I wouldn't be who I am today 

So I just wanted to tell you that...



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