Wednesday, 13 October 2010

The Final Post

Dear readers,

I am sorry to tell you, after some months without writing, that I am leaving this blog for good. I will miss it dearly but I fill like I want to write something different. Thank you all for listening so patiently. I will be forever grateful. If anyone is interested, my new blog is

Thank you.

Friday, 25 June 2010

And if you and I never become an us I want to be your biggest regret.

Thursday, 24 June 2010

Just a little passion

And our words are almost synchronized.

Our body's aching with desire.

Because I refuse to think I am the only one who's feeling this.

Because I have never wanted someone so much.

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?

It's not supposed to feel like this

I need you

I need you

More and more each day.

Cause you make me feel alive. And I thought my butterflies were dead. But I remembered that I shouldn't settle for anything less thanks to you.


And I consume the raging fire.

And I can feel the depths of the ocean.

And I become consumed by desire.

And I swear I though of you.

And I am afraid I can only hope that while you are with her you wish it was me.


Monday, 21 June 2010

About a Boy

So...There is this boy...

And I would tell you all about him.

But then you'd fall in love with him too.

-So, do you think we'll aver be able to have a decent conversation without feeling incredibly akward?

-I don't know...I don't think so really.

-Wow. Sucks.

-Yeah, it does.

-Do you think there's something we can do about it?

-Well, you could just kiss me and get it over with.

When someone is flirting with you

please cooperate

Dear heart,

I met a boy today...

Prepare to shutter!


Thursday, 17 June 2010

The Lovely Blog of Randomness Award

I am so excited because I just received an award from Abby! Thank you so much, really!

The rules of the Lovely Blog of Randomness Award are:

1. Display this award in some way on your blog.
2. Name 17 of your favourite random things.
3. Award four of your favourite random bloggers!
4. Make sure to check all of the nominee's blogs!


I award:

For being always so nice to me and having beautiful blogs :).

Okay! So now to the randomness...

1. I love to dance to my ipod whem I'm taking my dog for a walk.
2. I love to walk around the house with no shoes on.
3. I love to not be able to sleep directly so I can dream awake in bed.
4. I love when I have eye contact with a stranger and they smile at me.
5. I love singing my friends to sleep when we have a sleepover.
6. I love to watch movies with a romantic happy ending, even if they are no good.
7. I love to have the most random conversation with my friends.
8. I love knowing that, if someone heard us, they would think we're crazy.
9. I love baking carrot cakes.
10. I love showing people that carrot cakes are delicious.
11. I love to play at the beach when there are waves.
11. I love spending the whole day lying in bed and just reading.
12. I love getting tired of laughing.
13. I love to cuddle in bed when its cold.
14. I love to invent random songs with my brother.
15. I love bear hugs.
16. I love to feel the sun on my skin.
17. I love visiting new places and getting to know new cultures.

So...thats it!

Thank you all for listening, as always. 


PS. What do you think of my blog changes? Like them? Don't like them?

Wednesday, 16 June 2010

Don't let love happen to you

This is just something I found and liked and wanted to share with you...

Go after her. Fuck, don't sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because that's what you should do. If you love someone, don't wait for them to give you a sign because it might never come. Don't let people happen to you. Don't let me happen to you, or her. She's not a fucking television show or tornado. There are people I might have loved had they gotten on the airplane or run down the street after me or called me up drunk at four in the morning because they need to tell me right now and because they cannot regret this. And I always thought I'd be the only  one doing crazy things for people who would never give enough of a fuck to do it back or to act like idiots or be entirely vulnerable and honest. And making someone fall in love with you is easy. And flying 3000 miles on four days notice because you just can't just sit there and do nothing. And breathe into telephones. Its not everyone's idea of love but it is the way I can recognise it because that is what I do. Go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is beautiful and that is generous and that is what loving someone is. That is raw and that is unguared, and that is all that is worth anything, really.


Tuesday, 8 June 2010

About new technologies and actually using them (and summer)

There is something about facebook (and all its "copies") that I don't like. It's basically telling you: Add everyone you know so that you can always keep in contact with them. But, you know what? You never do. I mean, sure, at the beginning maybe. You know, after making I don't know how many friends from all over the world at camp and adding them to your facebook and uploading the photographs and saying "I miss you"...Well, soon after that, you stop talking to them and they are just THERE, you know? It's like, yeah, I'm not talking to you, which I'm kind of sorry about but I'm really lazy, but if I want I can know what's going on in your life. It's like: Well, why don't you just ask me? It's a huge network...But I can't help feeling lonely in it.  Is it just me?

That is why today I decided to send a message to all the people I would actually like to have a friendship with. But the problem is that after a few messages, this stops.

I think the problem is not seeing the other person. I mean, I can't help talking with the people at school...But in facebook it's just so easy to ignore everyone around you...

Does anyone get what I'm saying, or is it just me? Please tell me I'm not alone in this.

Changing completely of subject... I love that summer is nearly here, that in three weeks I'll be free. And so these images are colourful to celebrate this. Enjoy



Friday, 4 June 2010

About friendships, bad friendships and the ending of friendships

Sometimes in your life, people disappoint you and sadly there's nothing you can do to stop them. Most times, it comes as a surprise. A very unpleasant surprise.

I am not an open person. It is hard to gain my complete trust. Few people have managed this, and I consider them pretty great. When  I do open up though, I do it completely. With my heart and soul. I give it all for the people I love and I expect at least a portion of that in return.

I let you in.

I trusted you.

You were very important to me.

I wasn't to you.

You know, it it pretty standard to fight with the people you love. You can't agree in everything. You might say things you regret, but at the end everything is forgiven,right?

That's what you thought.

But boy, did you cross the line.


Saturday, 22 May 2010

Love you birthday girl!

My dear friend,

You have always been there through the good and the bad. You have held me close and given me so much. I want you to know that you can always count on me. That I will always be there. And that, if you get lonely, I'll catch a plane if I have to to hold you close to me.

Happy 18th birthday. You may be an adult but you will always be a little girl to me.

I love you sister.


Tuesday, 18 May 2010

Who cares?

And who cares if you miss the 18th birthday of someone who loves you.
Who cares if she needs you there.
Who cares if it's the last birthday we will spend together.
Who cares if we don't see each other again in a long time.
Who cares that it is goodbye.
Who cares about these last three years.
Who cares about all the good times we had.
Who cares if she suffers.
Who cares if she cries.


PS. Don't worry sister, I will always care.

Sunday, 16 May 2010

Because I love love love quotes :)

You know what?
Fuck beauty contests.
Life is one fucking beauty contest after another.
School, then college, then work...
Fuck that.
Fuck the air force academy.
If I want to fly, I'll find a way to fly.
You do what you love,
and fuck the rest.

-Little Miss. Sunshine

I guess its because i can't help but to remember everything. I mean, you see somebody and you think about all they've ever said and done. The good and the bad. It all comes back to you, and it feels so right and hurts so bad all at once.

I love you.
In a really really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you love you.
So pick me, choose me, love me.
-Grey's Anatomy

I had this guy leave me a voicemail at work, so I called him at home, and then he emailed me to my BlackBerry, and so I texted to his cell, and now you just have to go around checking all these different portals just to get rejected by seven different technologies.
It's exhausting.
-He's just not that into you

I hope you like these random quotes :)


Friday, 14 May 2010

For contemporary pseudo-intellect-neuro-hypochondriac people

They say that every day we have to eat an apple for iron and a banana for potassium. Also an orange for vitamin C, half a melon to improve digestion and a cup of unsweetened green tea to prevent diabetes.

Every day you have to drink two liters of water (yes, and then pee,which takes twice the time it took to drink them).

Every day you have to take one  yogurt to have 'L. Cassei Defensis' which nobody knows what the hell it is, but it seems that if you do not take a million and a half every day, you start to see people blurred.

Every day an aspirin to prevent heart attacks, plus a glass of red wine, for the same. And another white, for the nervous system. And a beer, which I do not remember for what it was. If you take everything together, even if it gives you a stroke right there, do not worry as you'll probably not notice.

Every day you have to eat fiber. A lot of fiber, until you get a sweater defecate. You should have four to six meals a day, light ones, not forgetting to chew each mouthful a hundred times. Calculatingi, only eating you loose like five hours.

Ah, after every meal you should brush your teeth, that is: after the yogurt and fiber brush your teeth, after the apple brush your teeth, after the banana brush your teeth ... and so long as you have teeth, not to mention spend floss, gum massager, mouth rinse with Plax...

You better extend the bathroom and put the stereo, because between the water, fiber and teeth, you're going to spend several hours a day in there.

We must sleep eight hours and work another eight, plus the five that we used to eat, twenty. You have three left, provided that there are no unexpected situations. According to statistics, we see three hours of television. Well, you can't anymore because every day you have to walk at least half an hour.

And you have to take care of friends because they are like a plant: you have to water them daily. And when you go on vacation too, I suppose ..

Furthermore, you should be well informed, so you have to read at least two newspapers and a magazine article, to verify the information.

Ah, you have to have sex every day, but without falling into the routine: you must be innovative, creative, renewing seduction. That takes time. And even more if it's tantric sex!

We must also make time for sweeping, washing clothes, dishes, and even more if you have a dog or any otherpet ... Children?!

So, when I count it gives me about 29 hours a day. The only possibility I can think of is to make more of these things at once, for example, you shower with cold water with yout mouth open so you can drink 2 liters of water.

As you leave the bathroom with a toothbrush in your mouth you make (Tantric)  love standing to your partner, who meanwhile looks at the TV and tells you, while you sweep. "Do you have a free hand? Call your friends .. And your parents! Drink your wine (after calling your parents you will need it). Your partner can give you the yogurt with the apple while he or she eats the banana with the fibre, and tomorrow you change. And, thank God we already grew, otherwise we would have to have also a daily bottle of milk.

Uuuuf! I only have two minutes left! I'm leaving now because between the yogurt, half a melon, beer, the first liter of water and fiber and the third meal of the day, I do not know what I'm doing but I need a bathroom urgently. Ah, I will also take the toothbrush...

Hope you enjoyed this crazy email I received =).


Monday, 10 May 2010

Because we're all broken enough to be humble

I am not confident.
I know I am smart, but not in the ways that count.
I read people much better than books but I never have the words to explain my findings.
I'm only as funny as I feel,
And I do not think I'm pretty.
I sometimes walk with my head down.
My posture is terrible.
I think horrible things about people and I let my emotions get the best of me.
I'm really not as nice as I'd like to be,
Or as innocent as you'd think I am.
I am a perfectionist.
I am a contradiction  to everything I want to stand for.
I'm a big dreamer with little motivation.
I am really no good at all on my own.
But I am analytical with myself.
And I don't understand how anyone could ever be cocky or proud when they are aware of all the disgusting things that they think and do but no one knows.
We're all broken enough to be humble.

(Unfortunately, not my words)


Saturday, 8 May 2010

Masochism and just plain human weirdness

Tonight I slept at my friend's house and we spent the night talking. You know, five girls together...That is a lot of talking. And she told us about her and her perfect boyfriend with which she's been for three years and they love each other to pieces and they make everyone jealous because everyone wants what they have. And she had, somehow, made up a problem in her mind which made both of them really sad.

Which got me thinking.

I know, weird,huh?

Have you ever realised that people can't be too long happy? They are incapable of accepting that there is nothing wrong. It almost seems as if they enjoy the sufferment that comes with the problems. Like they crave it. Pure masochism, if you ask me. But it seems to be true, at least from my perspective. We create these ridiculous problems in our head which don't exist. And we cry, and we tell our girlfriends, and we eat chocolate...All for nothing, because it is not there.

It's like we sabotage our lifes.

And really, if we could get rid of all our internal dramas, we would be so much happier. Maybe it's because we take life to seriously, I don't know.

Or maybe, we just get bored of doing always the same thing.

However, even when you know this, it's stillhard to tell your mind to just stop it already.


Thursday, 6 May 2010

A long time

Dear readers,

I am so sorry! I have been missing for a long time, haven't I? It is so sad because I love writing on my blog, and reading your comments and blogs, and now I will never be able to catch up with everything. However, I am back, and I will continue reading. And I will continue writing.

Hopefully you will continue listening :)

I don't know why I left this wonderful world. I suppose I just have been lazy lately. You know when you don't want to do anything at all? Well, yes, that was me.

However, it is time to wake up, especially as my exams are getting closer and closer!

This is my last year at school and I can't stop thinking about how I'm not going to see so many people again. People I've fought with, people I've disliked, yes, but people I've grown up with after all.

Maybe I'm too nostalgic but I already miss it and the year isn't over yet.

But what is going to be the hardest is saying goodbye to two of my girls, whom I love to pieces. The fantastic four will be broken and yes, we'll talk and see each other, but it will never be the same.

Yes, as Europe said, it's the final countdown.

And I can't help but shiver at the thought of loosing my small, imperfect world.

After all, it's been a long time.


Saturday, 6 March 2010

In shock

It's not like I didn't know that this day would come. It's not like I hadn't thought about it. And, really, I have no right to be mad. I was the one who broke it off, the one who had moved on. I should want you to move on too right?

And I do, don't get me wrong. I do. I want you to be happy because I still care about you. How could I not? I can't just forget two whole years that easily. It's not like I want to either. I still want you in my life.

When you told me you would wait for me I was scared. Scared that you wouldn't be able to move on. But now I'm just furious at you for making this so akward for me.

You were always an exception. Always the good guy. The guy who wanted something more. You made me feel special. You had chosen me out of all the other girls.

And suddenly you decide to look at a random girl whom you don't know or care about and it's just that simple for you. That easy. She's not special...Therefore why should I think that I am?

I know we used to talk about how much time was enough to start looking forward, start looking for someone else. And I know I said a month would be enough. But what did you expect? I knew it would not be enough but, how could I tell you?

And then you go and find a girl to hook up with the day we did one month apart. Real classy.

I know you didn't want to hurt me and I don't feel this way because I want you back. No, that is not it. I am just so confused. You've still hurt me a lot, even though you swear you are the one hurting because of the break up.

Excuse me for not understanding how, if that's true, you could go off with another girl that easily.

I suppose that you've wounded my ego real badly. I know it may not be fair, but you should have thought about me. I have done nothing but think about ways not to hurt you this past month, but don't worry, that is going to stop.

It may not be fair, but you already knew that.

Tuesday, 9 February 2010


So, my three best friends and I decided a long time ago to say goodbye and part our seperate ways with a trip through Europe. We've always been together at school, but that will change in college as each of us will go different places.

HOWEVER,  that is so not the point.

The point is we are starting to organise it and I had the idea of asking you if you knew of any place in the following cities which we should not miss:


It could be tourist places or just nice hidden spots.

Thank you to everyone =)

Wednesday, 3 February 2010


And she wishes she could escape all this. Go back in time. Or forward. It really doesn't matter. The only thing she cares about is getting rid of this feeling of not being able to decide how her life is going to turn out.

She used to think she was worth it. She used to think she was unstoppable. She used to think that she'd get what she always wanted.

But boy was she wrong.

She's been crushed to pieces which are so small she doesn't even recognise them anymore. How can she trust herself if no one else does? She has no confidence. She has nothing to make her feel better.

Every bad decision she ever made is catching up to her. She has tried to run, but she's tired. The huge ball is catching up and she's going to be hit by it, but it doesn't matter anymore. She can't fight anymore. 

She's just so tired.


Friday, 8 January 2010

To the girl who will replace me...

There are just a couple of things that I thought I should tell you. I learned these while I was the object of your guy's affection. First of all, don't be frightened if he smothers much more love on you than you had expected. Don't be surprised if he treats you much better than any other guy you have ever met. And let it not scare you that he will actually listen carefully to every word you say, even when you're just speaking quietly. 

Also, you should know that he remembers everything you will say. He's hurt easily, especially by the painful words a careless girl will say. If you do hurt him, then you'll have to pay the price of seeing the broken look in his passionate and deep brown eyes, and watch the light in them fade. But if this happens, all is not lost- a kiss and an "I love you" can heal anything. 

And please, don’t say I love you to him, unless you really mean it, nothing hurts him more then someone who really doesn’t care. Sometimes, he won't tell you what he is feeling, but... just know that he is protecting you and if you ever feel that something isn't right, just look into his beautiful brown eyes and you will be able to see into him. You can see everything he is feeling, everything he is thinking, everything that isn't right with him... 

He won't ever try to hurt you, because he just isn't that way, so please don't hurt him because if you do, I don't think I could ever forgive you. I don't think there could ever be a worse feeling in the world than knowing that you have the boy that I love and knowing that you hurt him. You should know that if you two ever get into a fight, just make sure you pick only the ones worth fighting for... 

He will always keep his temper and will never curse at you or call you names, despite the anger he may be feeling. Though he may act mature, most of the time, once he's given you his heart, he will begin to open up to you and his silliness will make your heart smile, in a way that words can not explain. Don't hold a tight grip on him, let him go and be part of the world and experience new things. You will find that he is a busy guy and that he is so very independent. Sometimes, he will need his space, but don't worry... 

He'll always make time for you and even when you're not around, you'll be in his thoughts. You will find that he isn't like any other guy that you have met, so please don't take him for granted. When it comes to his money, don't take advantage of that, He will be so unselfish with it, because that is the way he is. Remember, He likes blue better than green, blonds better than brunettes, Republicans better than Democrats, Soft pretzels win over Steak, Kacki over denim, Leather over cloth, and even though he won't admit it, he really does like to be surprised. He is less tough than he may appear, you just have to take the time and let him bring down his guard... 

He is so sweet and so amazing and know that if you ever leave him, you will break his heart apart, the same way that my heart breaks apart, as I sit here writing this to you. Don't ever try to pull him away from his dreams. He is going to be an extremely successful attorney and won't ever let you give up on your dreams, either. He will encourage you to become everything you can be and will never, ever let you down. He likes it when you kiss his ear and nothing is better than hugging each other. Just watch how your hand will fit perfectly into his and when it does, it seems as if nothing in the world could hurt you, because he is there. And when he puts his arms around you and tells you that you are the girl he loves, you will know, there isn't any guy in the world better than him...

 Don't ever let him go. You will regret doing so, for the rest of time... I promise, you will.

-{Sorry for not writing in forever, my world is kind of hectic right now. This text is not mine, and I really don't know where it is from, but I really like it, and I hope all of you do too =) }-